The Transformation

In another life I might have been a watermelon, the fruit that grows close to the ground and leaves absolutely nothing to chance in the summer.  Its a fabulous fabulous fruit and requires lots of sun and lots of water and lots of nutrient, and yet they are not difficult to grow.  There are the water melons which have stripes on them and there are the others which grow with darker shades and no stripes.  Willy Watermelon had been particularly greedy, he had wanted to acquire everything without really giving anything in return.  Almost like the heartbreaker who would takes hearts without ever giving his love.  Why did he have to be heartbreaker, I wonder, maybe because there was a little something in his heart that was stoney, cold as stone, and frosty as ice.

When Willy Watermelon was young there were a million of admirers to tell him how good he was and how much they loved him.  All waiting to usurp anything he even chanced them to have a glimpse of, there would have been times when he would open his wallet and there would be like people just waiting to take anything he showed them.  Willy was a straight forward, down-to-earth good looking guy and yet as he grew older he came to be known as Wiley Willy.  There are a numerous methods he applied to fight back his detractors, and one of his favourite techniques came to be known as the Wiley Cut.

 The days of the Raj had long gone by, now what remained of him was his past glory, his ability to counterattack and the gentleman he was, the ability to convince and cajole people towards the correct path.  So Willy thought, hey why not get into marketing, after all he was already a pro at selling mangoes, and marketing is nothing but selling yourself.   He convinced a friend of his, the "Classic Beatle" to take up the cause of marketing themselves, after all it was a fine combination, the classic car to cart the classic fruit.  Fantastic as they would say, was the idea of getting into a trade that allowed you to make money on the basis what precious thought you held in your mind.  It was nothing afterall then convincing the people who had money to the thought of parting with it, after all what good was money if it was not being spent to buy happiness.  "Ahhh" said the beatle, "so we are in the business of creating happiness and selling it ? ".  Prompt came Willy's reply "yes maam, if you allow me I will show you how"
She loves me yea yea yea .. :-)

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Raise the Titanic

My friend, you were my only hope and today I feel so betrayed.  You let me down by sending me inappropriate mails, never thought that this was you.  But there you go, I have the mail right in front of me. You let me down because you lied to me, there are a certain few things I expect in all my friends and you lied and connived about them to get close to me.  You are a devil in an angels incarnation.  Friend when you let me down, I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder.  I forgive you my friend, but if you ever do it to me again, I shall kill you with my own two bare hands.

I do believe that every fall from grace has a purpose and most importantly is a Cause-Affect phenomenon.  If one falls then I do believe the affect should always be the equivalent of raising the titanic.  There was a time when everybody was scared of telling the emperor that "he wore no clothes".  The tailors and his cahoots had so convinced the emperor that these were the new clothes even though he was naked and it is hard to comprehend how people agree to things which they know are not there.  Justifying to oneself that they have done the right even when they have been in the wrong is a terrible mistake.  Life isn't about rationalization, it is about living and living well.

I am not too worried about the people who can and do have the ability to vent out their feelings, if you have been wrongly and unjustifiably accused of something then it must come out, not because you have to fight, but because your soul will demand an explaination from you.   Friend of mine, thought it right to explain to me what she thought was infringement of privacy and I do believe that she might be right.  People have a right to privacy and should be left alone when they so demand. So make no phone calls and send no messages unless your point of view is accepted and understood. The often heard term privacy is the least respected out of the lot.  It is the bane of the commercial enterprise that there is no truth in any matters relating to it, that they are twisted and turned.  A mental connect is all that we have and if that goes missing, walk away my friend.  It is safer to live and fight another day for a more justifiable cause than to explain a crime you haven't even thought of committing.

I forgive you my friend, cause you are the most important person in my life.

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Soul Searching

The old house still looks the same.  Everything is just the same as it was when I left it some 7 years back.  Mom and Dad all the same people, they look older though and I wonder where in the world did they go to that they look so old now.  My friend I missed you, have never spoken to you and only seen you as you walked by and yet there is a rhythm divine when I see you walk down the street, lost in your thoughts, smiling to yourself.  There is a purpose and a way about the way you think.  My friend, its been a great journey of learning and self discovery through you.  You have friends now who will take care of you and memories that will take you far and beyond the realms of your own dreams.  Remember me, friend, whenever you need me, or listen to me when I need you.  We have forged bonds that are unbreakable and will continue to live on.

Parents are such a tremendous source of inspiration for any child, they teach and nurture their young ones for them to grow up into intelligent human beings.  Without these initial inputs we would be lost in a world that is harsh.  They make the environment what it is for us, even after we grow up, always there to support and handle our emotional well being.  It is not said without a reason that one who loses his father loses all hope in life.  There is an emotional attachment that comes from the fact that the same blood runs through the veins, the thought patterns are the same as also the responses.  Why don't I feel the same for my parents, is it because I have seen them for what they are, know them to be what they are ?  Today I live a life of my own, without caring for them, I am just the man I want to be, happy in my belief that I will get what is due to me because I deserve it

I have experienced pain and suffering at the hands of my own loved ones, have given myself away to people too often, trusting them, believing them, my life's cup just brimmed over now.  I need you friend, I miss the days of trust and belonging, I can live on for myself, by myself,  I hope someday, you will understand what I learnt from you.  These days I am writing my life story in my own blood, the scavengers take away everything that I believe in and yet I continue to write, there is always something listening in this universe, and my pain will wipe away these dreams people live their lives on.
What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger

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Give Me Hope

When the times are down, the only folks who give you hope are the ones who love you for yourself.  They do not overtly apply their minds into wondering what other people think of them, nor do they worry about what their greed, ego and avarice would want them to do.  They just have acceptance for you within their heart.  It is clearly visible, even if anything else isn't.  The eyes are bright, there is peace and calm about them and ofcourse only if we are conscious of our own spirituality, not in love with duality, that we see them for who they truly are.  It isn't that today I am in a mood for some gyan 'read knowledge sessions but I see this as a way of life. Messengers are all around us, imbibing us with hope and knowledge of who we truly are.

Humans, nowadays, seem to live too much on the surface, giving into material things in life, not understanding that there might have been a time when we weren't so full of ourselves, when we were the underdogs on a planet filled with species bigger than us, when even the rustle of the grass would wake up Adam for he sought to protect Eve from the prying eyes and mortal danger.  These might have been times that we were truly in our elements as our powers and organs were keenly tuned to protecting ourselves from physical harm, in tune with what nature saw us as, just mere animals.  As time passed and our mental faculty developed we took to dominating the other life on planet Earth.  However it wasn't without HER 'read natures will that we became the dominant life on the planet, and I assume that we are the dominant life, or atleast visibly the dominant life.  Whenever you walk the path first, are pioneers in any task, as humans were when they set foot on Earth, it is almost as if, that you take the brunt of the attack that the enemy can give you.  If you see what I am saying then, there is great merit in waiting for the right time to move.  SHE allowed us to dominate the planet by giving us a highly productive re-productive system, which was useful initially in repleneshing the frontline to follow up.  There is however a need to control it now. This is the way of nature, she allows you to take control when she loves you.
Jo bhi pyaar sey mila hum ussi key ho liye.

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The Scary Poker

I have been a scary poker for half of my life, that was before I met my husband.  First there was the scare of people - family, parents even some friends to an extent.  There was always more importance given to walking the line than personal gratification.  Then there were these added benefits of getting what you wanted if you toed the line.  Then I met my husband and that changed everything.  A strong man with impeccable values, knowing exactly when to draw the line.  More importantly for me, somebody who didn't think too much of parents and family, as they distracted him from his eventual goal, which I realise at that point time was me.  How much he struggled to get married to me, either I would know and he definitely understands it.  I come from a very orthodox family, we are traditional people and as far as I have known have always been that way.  He is from a very different background where culture and religion was given less importance than education and honest uprightness.  Bravery is a word which is second skin to him.  He will fight when he sees injustice being done, and like he tells me, bravery is not what you do when things are going for you but rather what you do when you aren't getting anything like what you want.  He has stood by me in all my good and bad, through all my tantrums and moods, handled all of it with the stoic attitude that comes out of good Punjabi stock.  Six feet tall and in the best of days, he would take me in his arms and swing me around taking my sorrows and blowing them away in the wind. Touch wood !!!

He travelled the countryside when things weren't working out for us with regards to marriage.  God is not something he has intrinsically believed in, it was just the thought of not getting me, that he started visiting the temples in South India.  There was a death wish that he made during those days.  He asked of me from God, at the expense of everything else in life.  I do believe he made a decision that early in his life that very few people have the ability or strength to understand.  He is still with me, caring when needed, dominating when I need him to be, a tower of strength and understanding.  Now what fruit could be the tower of strength or understanding I wonder.  I do believe the watermelon is that fruit.  Very much the summer fruit, understanding the heat like no other, handling it with aplomb and cooling to the body.  I do believe this might be the "Willy Watermelon" we might be looking at.

So what did Willy Watermelon say to the God of small things, no puns intended to Arundhati Roy.  He said to God "leave me alone please, I want to live life on my own terms, want to see what it is to be a man I want to be.  And heres what God did, plucked him from his tree and threw into a pool of crocodiles and said "there you go, live now".  Willy Watermelon woke up with a rude shock where nothing worked, he was a frog of a small pond thrown into the sea.  There were people with sharp knives who carved him up, but Willy had his own mechanism to handle that, this Willy was wily as a fox, he spit the seeds out at his attackers, until he had them running.  That is the Willy Watermelon.  The king of the summer fruits, and a sweetie pie.
In another life I might have been the Watermelon

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The Living Daylights

Whore Whore Whore, they call us,
without really knowing the white,
Stranger than fiction, is my life
Forgive me because this life makes me lie and be deceitful

It is our life and we chose to do with it what pleases us.  Its strange that not knowing the circumstances of ones life, people are willing to pass judgement on my life.  To impose their morals on ours.  I have been a whore nearly all my working life.  From the time I stepped into my office, working for money, doing things for people to earn a buck.  I should maybe add there, a 'decent' buck, but believe me it ain't so decent any more.  I do things that are not moral anymore, I lie at work to people I don't want to.  I am made to do this all in the hope of being an out performer.  I am part of the team of a team of 10-12 members at a prestigious American BPO (Business Process Outsourcing), accepting calls from Americas to solve their technical queries on their computers and other IT infrastructure.  Strange that I had to deem to take up this lowly, or seemingly lowly job, but I did.  Stranger still that I was not willing to accept it as a profession, that I thought of it as something I didn't deserve.  Did I really have to lie about this as a profession, to gloss it up in front of you, my friend, and make it sound like I was doing something else.  When, really as a matter of fact, this has been the best thing that had happened to me in 7 years now.

My job is actually to keep my mind shut to external thoughts and speak what I to clients, intuitively without thinking too much.  And it does come easy to me, I know this job well and I do it well.  After all I had been training for it in the last enterprise that I ran for 4 years.  But that's another story and has been told before, of Basvaraja and Rajesh and a few other folks that I met on that profile.  Its a job that requires me to work in shifts, in BPO parlance, American shift.  Start working late, not earlier that 5 pm IST and work my butt of for 8 hours for a measly salary.  The strange thing about salary is that I have survived in far less than I earn today, yet I call it a measly salary.  Is it really me, stooping this low working with young guys and gals, trying to keep myself afloat, while they work for a the thrill of it.  They have their lives ahead of them, while I am probably just trying to hide from myself.  Looking at all the gloss and all the high profile work places, coming from where I have, I probably don't have it in me to say no to anything they offer. 

At this American BPO that I worked for roughly three years, I calmed my nerves and cracked the biggest test of my life.  I had soldiered on for at least four years without any support from family or friends, and knew that I had to make it big in this job.  Living a life that knew no luxury, a senseless, mindless existence, learning new things yes, but for what I know not.  I had never wanted to work for a BPO, when it was first suggested in 2002, I had shunned the idea, instead choosing to teach and train.  Then I topped the floor at this  BPO and the floor consisted of some 1000 agents all working towards the same goal.  To be the best.  For one full quarter, I was nominated the star of the show.  I still have the certification and plaque.  It does bring tears in my eyes to know what they gave to me was acceptance and reward for excellence.  Of course, it might also have been a reward for keeping my mouth shut and not responding to taunts about my past.  I might be proud of what I have achieved here, but it does not take away the torture I endured during the course of success as also later on. 
I was rewarded for being the best whore in town

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My King of Kings

Speaking of [Prime Ministers], there are a host of candidates to choose from.  There is the prince Rahul Gandhi, theres also the new prince Akhilesh Yadav and then there is the Old man of Bengal, Pranab Mukherjee.  I tend to believe that voting is a very compulsive exercise in India, we can vote based on the ideologies but we hardly do, as a matter of fact, the educated well to-do Indian is not too interested in voting, as they tend to believe that whatever the outcome it will not affect them.  After all, if one has a big pocket, then there is the Diesel Generator for the power cuts, and submersible pump for the water shortage.  If there is a security issue then hire some personal security guards, so much so, when the swine flu epidemic hit us, there was a segment of the population that horded the medicine not waiting for a solution from National Health Service.

I wonder, if it does make more sense to run a parallel government wherein we pay taxes to the people who actually will provide us electricity, water and security.  For instance, let these well to do personalities who have no fear of the government, start out-sourcing their services to other people in their region.  We would then find a section in the local yellow pages for the A-Governance or Alternate Governance.  The theme could go as follows :


                                     Classified Avertisement
                                     Clients sought by A-Governance firm
                                      for internal governance
                                      available for outsourcing

So how would A-Governance be defined -  it is an outrising of a serious and urgent need to bring responsibility to governance.  Internally and externally, there has to be a set of well defined objectives.  If any governance functions within those objectives it is then accepted by the citizens or clients.  On the contrary, the current governance in the country is [unacceptable] and therefore like mobile number portability, that is the ability to shift your mobile service provider without changing your number, a citizen must have a choice of shiting his or her governance model without changing their existing address.

Government today has become unlawful and immoral in its action.  With five years required for any government to go out, a interim arrangement of A-Governance would step in to solve the issue.  So what are the premises of A-Governance, below appears a 10 point charter :

1. A rational legal framework.
2. Sound internal Governance.
3. [Total Autonomy].
4. Governance Portability clause.
5. The constitution of a board, responsible to public interest.
6. Internally [responsible] to its citizens and externally function within the framework of the erstwhile existing elected O-government 'read Old Government.
7.  A-Governance to imbibe its values and morals within itself as also to its citizens.
8.  Also introduce common moral standards, supervise their implementation, and serve as an important force to develop industry culture and self-discipline.
9. Donors, beneficiaries, collaborators, media, the general public, independent auditors and the government all need to be involved in the management of A-Governance.
10.  Finally, it is necessary to set up a mechanism of extensive participation of citizens.

Why must we restrict ourself to a form of government that doesn't serve our purpose, that is self centric and unresponsive.  Citizens have a right to Alternate-Governance if the existing tenets fail to deliver what is required.
Any form of Monopoly breeds corruption, the [Gods] of the Land must be [crazy].

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Have No Fear, I am Here

The idea of death appeals to me, there are a million of these folks who think that death should be avoided, however it is the inevitable truth.  The Truth, that neither is denied nor can be taken for granted.  When it comes, the human mind will not know and yet in the same vein it cannot be ignored.  I have been so in awe of this life I have been living, that its hard for me to understand why people cry and why they try and commit suicide.  Till the very thought hit me.  Death doesn't like to be cheated.  If I tried to kill myself once before, I will try it again and again and again.  Till I succeed.  The thoughts of life going away from my body doesn't scare me as much as the thought and pain of having to try to get away from it multiple times to reach the final conclusions of death.  This is where I am headed today, but give it to me in one shot.  It is apocalyptic that success 'read life runs away from us as much as failure if we chase it.

Throw another thought at you, why do I feel so proud of having tried to get closer to death.  Is it because I pride myself in having done what very few people would have done.  People worship life, at least most I know, and very few like me seek death.  Is that what makes me proud ? Or is it the thought of how strong I came out of it, knowing that God wanted me to live and knowing that we normally find what we seek.  I truly believe that it is important to feel strong even if your aren't strong.  When I mean strength I probably speak of mental strength, as also physical.  Its a tough world we live in, the guy who has nothing to lose will drop by a sinker to your house, and you who has everything to lose, lock the doors and windows, call the cops and warn your family not to step out.  Strength comes from the feeling of "nothing to lose".  I am having a hard time defining where this post is going, all my set of beliefs will probably come out into a compact brief readout.

Here's what a "Nothing to Lose" is, somebody who has been abandoned by his own, with no finances, just a gut feel, guided by the thought of survival, somebody unwilling to part with their life even at the cost of taking yours.  I have been there and seen what it feels to have "Nothing to Lose", killed pigeons for food, hit people when they least expected both physically and their psyche.  I have seen people cringe at the thought of facing me.  Have tortured people, happy people, with everything to lose into accepting what I wanted from them, because I was stronger than they ever will be.  I had the will of my soul behind me, and they had only their fears.  Part of the person I am today, stems from the times I experience absolute abyss with my finances.  God blessed with a strong body, and during these times, I toned it into a stronger piece of machine, and trained my mind into conjuring up machiavellian schemes, including the thoughts of taking somebody else's life.  
"They shall pay for it, Gods must have been crazy to have overlooked my birth"
  

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Naam - the Source of all Healing

My two babies are growing up so well.  Like darlings infact.  It was just yesterday that I was feeding them cerelac.  And today they ordered their first meal from Mcdonalds.  Life has changed in myriad of ways, some I understand..  Mostly, I can see the first step and not the whole staircase, seems like only yesterday that I was carrying my older baby down the staircase when I slipped.  My world had almost come crashing down, what if I had lost him.  My mental agony at the thought is stronger than the physical pain of the wound I had suffered.  All is well, and yet the thought tortures me even today. what if .....  ?  Bad memories are like scars, they scald and singe the brain everytime we go back to them.  The masochist would take pleasure in it and revel in the pain and I do understand that bad memories need to be revisited to sort out the mistakes of our past or we might repeat them.  However, all of us especially the re-borns have a protective shield around them.  Its like they have an angel who protects them, and watches over them.  I have had angels watching over me too.  Its like somebody wants me to live, isn't that strange, I would like to die but somebody even today, and I am old enough to choose death, doesn't want me to go.  What is it that is holding me back in this world is uncanny, I serve no purpose here and yet this force refuses to let me go.  Its like two hearts living in the same body.  One wants to go and the other says I will not let you go.

I have been involved in some gruesome accidents myself, some pretty nasty, like the one I had with my wife back in 1997, I was driving and the car skidded out of control on the Gurgaon MG road.  We were on our way back from gurgaon, and there had been just a speck of oil on the road.  I wasn't speeding and those days seat belts weren't the norm either in India.  Can you imagine our condition inside a Maruti Suzuki 800, the indian equivalent of a mini, this small thing can take a bang, however it ain't easy when it overturns and both the people inside are tossed around. Suffice to say that we survived with minor bruises and so did the car.  So much so, that people who saw the accident were amazed at how we had survived.  Well wishers and well meaning people are there to watch the show, impotent to do anything when the tragedy happens.  But it is the fear of HIM that moves the earth, rivers, clouds, the sun and moon and to enact a tragedy is but a small feat for him.  Like I said in a previous post of mine the messenger of death hover all around us, it is but his word that keeps them away.

Then there was this other home accident about 2 years back, which should have crippled me, as I fell down the stairs, all of nearly 10 steps cemented and tiled, badly injuring my ligament tissue.  Worst scenario was that there was no one at home, folks were in Australia enjoying a holiday.  Survived it too, it doesn't take long to understand the ways of the lord.  I had friends who helped out then, some by talking and comforting, their genuine concern was enough to spark a mental revival, and others by being there for the hospital ride.  Suffice to say that it was such a bad knock that it took 3 months to heal and even after two years of that accident, I still feel the pain occassionally.  I serve no purpose here, my friend, unless it is to help somebody out.
Please Use me, my friend, I am here for you, whoever you are and wherever you are.

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Leader of the band

When I first saw him he was prancing around the bushes and trees with pretty young things.  He was tall, slim and had the school boy kind of looks.  Locks that fell over his eyes, the woman found him hilarious because he just couldn't talk.  Yet he tried every rope in the book to hook up with some girl or the other.  There was pretense which was justified under the guise of the famous old saying - Everything is fair in love and war. Pretty soon when the time came, he rolled up his sleeves and got to work, people just loved him.  As he grew older he stopped worrying about his looks and let his mouth do the talking.  Never have I seen another wearing ill fitting clothes charm the wallet off the client.  The gift of the gab is the most important thing, and I do believe he had it.  I adored him, saw him as my mentor, there were people who saw this and wanted to stop him from noticing me.  Jealousy raised its head in every meeting,  afterall, who would want him to take me as a protege when he had an entourage of followers who strongly guarded their turf. 

It so happened, that in 1998, I began to work under him and slowly got used to his ways and his thought patterns of life.  I came from a background of enterpreneurs, and he from a family of working professionals.  I had this straight backbone which refused to bend even in front of my boss.  Any other person would have told me shape up my act, but not him, he pampered and cajoled me into working on themes that I loved and liked.  I had before joining him done a small unsuccessful stint as an entrepreneur and with that kind of baggage behind me, it was hard to let go of my pride.  I lied in the interview about my success rate as an enterpreneur and was still hired by him.  "We need this guy", was the common refrain about me, was it my looks or did they just need somebody to work independently like an entrepreneur in the confines of a corporate world.  Maybe the HR department sympathized with me and were trying to help.  And he certainly was trying to help, I couldn't see that then, as I can see now oh so clearly. 

E-learning is a hard nut to crack and requires a lot of effort in terms of content development.  Technology and delivery engines you will get dime a dozen, but the content that will make people understand and sit up and think about whats been taught is very difficult.  I presume, most people think of E-learning as a waste of time, it doesn't work, classroom is much better.  The thing is, content is the king, and he was the emperor of content.  Understanding the subtleties of text, how it rolled on the screen, intuitiveness, design and structure of the interface, planning the delivery mechanism and rolling out specs to the developers.  He knew it all and in all brainstorming sessions we would prick his mind left right and centre to figure out how a particular module would look and read out the best.  It was just a matter of triggering the right button to get the appropriate response from him.  For people with very little time, he was god sent.

And then he promoted me, just before he left the organization.  I was sad to know, the day he said he was leaving the organization, said something about finding his own path.  The sorrow I felt was inexpressive and I didn't tell him that I would miss him.  Maybe I should have, atleast there would have been no regrets.  But then this blog post is a salute him.  May he shine and do the very best in life in whatever endeavour he chooses.
K.K, all the best, all the best, yes you are the best.

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Dilli Meri Jaan

I just love Delhi, even though I wasn't born here, I have spent the whole of my childhood here eating Mangoes under the giant shade bearing trees of the summer season and hiding under thick duvets to keep away the cold in the chill season.  Unfortunately, central heating never figured in the scheme of things in India so winters are pretty severe if you don't have the comfort of a razai.  When I was a  kid there were so many things one could to do here, from reading books at central government libraries to playing cricket in the fields that dot the urban landscape.  We just love our cricket here.  I grew up playing cricket and eating butter chicken, and drinking jaljeera or banta soda. Banta soda had a queer device for a cork, there was like a marble embedded in the bottle so to let the fizz out or drink it one had to pop the marble into the crevice at the top of the bottle.  All kinds of funny devices and makeshift arrangements lined our life.  Get up the in the morning and head to school to study and ofcourse to play cricket.  School had plenty of open spaces and lots and lots of turf to play.  But in the morning we played what was called "hand cricket" with one tip catch - OUT.  Hand cricket utilized a rubber ball and makeshift stumps in the form of errected stone slab.  Team size ranged from anywhere between five to the conventional eleven.  Come to think of it, I enjoyed handcricket so much that I was a star material slamming balls with my hand to all corners of the smaller fields.  Come afternoon we were ready for some real-life cricket in the large playing fields.  I was a star at this too, come to think of it, I just loved playing cricket, hitting the ball long over the boundaries for sixers and bowling those in-cutting seamers and banana out-swingers.  As a matter of fact captained my school team in the final year at school.  As afternoon would approach, we would head home in our buses, come back, sleep a bit and again off to the field in the blazing sun to play - CRICKET.  As I grew older I started exploring Delhi.  Not only the bylanes of my colony and adjoing areas but far flung catchments of Chandni Chowk and Karol Bagh, as also smelling the croisants of the high and mighty at The Oberois.  Ghungroos for the night and hopping to Sunny Singhs remixes, memories that are hard to die down.  Remember "The Boss" Springsteen came to Delhi and I went to the concert and loved it.  Bruce "the boss" Springsteen was the best thing that came to town.  It changed the whole landscape, from bars and drinking holes to discotheques start popping up everywhere.  And I remember I was in college when I saw Sushmita Sen, yes the same Miss Universe who wowed the world, walk out of Ghungroos and as she passed me she happened to look at me.  It was one of those casual glances but I was rooted.  "there is something about mary .. hmmm"

Though Chor Bizzare, based at Delhi Gate, Asaf Ali Road ,is a recent phenomenon, it is run by the same folks who run Indian Habitat Centre.  I remember visiting IHC for the first time when I was in college, those were heady days, hang around the parking, eat at American Diners, kingfishers and cocktails to uplift the spirit and as night descended or rather as the morning sun was about to come up head to National School of Drama for Chai and sutta.  It was awesome, even interacted with Naseeruddin Shah once at the chaiwallas shack.  Then there was the UPSC chaatwala near India Gate if you wanted something spicier and tangier in the evening before we hit IHC.  If you didn't like the spice, you could always head to the paranthawali gali in Chandni Chowk, close to the present Metro Station.  Some sumptious paranthas or as the phirangs would call it, Indian pancakes.  So what was so special about Parantha Walli Gali, well there are some 20 shops all serving and making paranthas.  It is the way that they make that they make paranthas that is unique, the mawa parantha and papad parantha served along with seethaful subzi is just awesome.

Over a period of time I have tended to enjoy Haldiram as well.  The one in Connaught Place serves good Indian food.  They have even managed to set up a pasta counter, thought the raj kachori is simply the best.  If you wanna have channa bhaturas then the best place to go to is Sweets Corner, Sundar Nagar. These guys really fluff up their bhaturas and the channa brings the Old world charm to the taste buds.  For South Indian I have always enjoyed Andhra Bhawan, the masala prawns and fried fish, ummmmmmm, can smell it even as I write.  The thali is a traditional Andhra dish out with rice, rasam, sambhar, sabjees and the works but its the side dishes that turn the meal wholesome.  By the fried mutton here is a must try.  Iqbal at Nizammudin Dargah is pretty good for kakori kebabs too.
And to top it all the coffee, forget the CCDs and Barista, go to the United Coffee Home in connaught place, man, the smell of freshly brewed coffee will have your nostrils up in ecstasy.  Its been a heady life here and I have loved every single minute here.
Yeh Dilli Meri Jaan, tabhi toh mera bharat mahan.

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The Cult Figure

I have always believed that my emotional independence comes from my lack of fear of loneliness.  I understand that is a huge thing to say, for instance I can go for drives all by myself, go to coffee shops and read books or work on my laptop on my own, even eat and drink without any company.  I am perfectly content in my way of life right now.  There have been times when I have not needed to speak to my relatives or close ones for months.  Haven't spoken to my parents in days now, even though we stay in the same house.  I am not sure they understand this, but I have my memories that I will deal with in my own ways.  Maybe today is good day to start a conversation with them, we shall after all talk about Mango Singh and the weather it takes to make him crisp and brave hearted.  My moms uncles were fruit sellers, did I ever mention that.  As a matter fact that is very sardar like, to do your own business and leave the thoughts of slavery of petty minded bosses behind.  Even though I have worked for someone all my life, I understand this thought of retaining ones freedom as the most important thought process in my psyche.  We are free birds, love to roam the sky, so my moms uncles opened up their own business.  It ran so well, that even their pets started having fruits at breakfast and as evening fillers.  And, then something changed it.  It was painful when uncle died, all of sudden there was nothing in Rani aunties family.  All the energy, the longing and desires went from the family.  All that remained was some dull memories of those moments of joy and laughter and paranthas with white butter for breakfast.  God !! how it pained me to see their sorrow.  If only I could comfort this strong Punjabi family with my words.  There were only tears I had and maybe they wanted more from me.  I had always believed that I didn't belong with these people, rural upbringing and strong, almost head strong clan.

Uncle was a cult figure, landed in India after the partition in 1947, built a business out of nothing but a few rupees.  So what do you do when you got to feed your family and got nothing at the end of they day.  You plant a garden of fruits, so if they don't sell, you eat them for dinner.  Not such a bad idea after all, no inventory to keep and all profits to reap at the end of the day.  Uncle till he died and it was in his late 80's was eating four paranthas cooked in pure ghee for breakfast.  Some say that he actually died because the docs couldn't believe anybody could live with the kind of oily diet he had.  But then rustic lifestyles had lots of exercise and manual labour built into them, so whatever was eaten got burnt in the rigours of labour.  Uncle was a wiry old man, not too large built but very wiry, like a coil ready to spring.  This fruit I call the "labour leechi" different from the "Meena Leechi", I mentioned in my previous post which is originally grown in Bihar, this particular one is dished out from the heartlands of North India.  Labour Leechi has a very distinct, loud flavour, juicy like the just rewards of hardwork.  Wasn't it Mahatma Gandhi who said that every Indian should do a little bit of manual labour everyday, well he was right, manual labour uplifts the spirit and yet grounds you to realities.  A truly emotionally independent thought.  I don't want to fly a Boeing 787, just give me bi-plane under the hovering clouds.
Anonymous, I am better, fly me just under the radar.

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Bravery and Cowardice

There are some fruits in my garden that defy logic.  There is the Baniya Banana, now this one is famous, because it gives you  a slippery tongue plus is a great stomach leveller, if had in moderation.  When I used to drink, there were some great cocktails that were made of it.  There was the Avalanche and then even better was the Beach Blonde.  Avalanche contained Green Mark Vodka to proportion and half a banana.  Though I enjoyed it for a while it made me wonder wasn't this a cowardly drink, I mean the Baniya Banana stands on a very strong tree with wide leaves but when it comes the fruit itself it is so gooey, like its spineless.  I prefer my fruits to be much more crisper and with a texture that defines itself like a statement.  The only statement the banana makes is "touch me not" because I am fragile. 

Bravery, the kinds that Lieutenant General J.S. Aurora typified in the Indo-Pak war of  1971 is the stuff historians talk about till today.  He was supposed to be the logistics man behind the ground forces in the war of 1971.  This man was straight forward, reliable and with a no  nonsense attitude that instilled faith in his peers and troops.  People say that, bravery had nothing to do with Jagjit Singh Aurora.  He was just the logistics man, and I say my friend, every action of his had bearing on the defeat that the Indian Army eventually inflicted on their enemy.  And when I say this man was peerless, I mean he really was a pear of the Indian Army.  Crisp in his communication, strong, capable. lion hearted and in many ways a ladies man, somebody emotionally capable to handle the as a matter of fact as easily as the subtleties of a man-woman relationship.  When he died in 2005, here is what the bangladeshi brigade of that time said for him “Aurora will be remembered in the history of Bangladesh for his contribution during our war of liberation in 1971, when he led the allied forces.”

So what distinguised the General from, say, a modern day Rahul Gandhi or even a patriach like Narsimha Rao was his attachment to the cause and the sincerity with which he played his role.  It is not what we want to be but the truth we say to each other that defines who we become.  Role plays are rampant nowadays, everybody has an idea of what they want to be, and where they want to be, the money they want to make and the dates they want to be on, even the kind of woman or man they want to bed.  Ever thought of the different roles we play to reach our objective.  The general was free of any such incumbents, he might have come from a small background but his mind knew what he wanted to do and that realisation causes my mind to break into orgasmic ecstacy.  In all his tenure in East Pakistan, never once the army could have been accused of sexual misconduct, something I can't say about the troops posted in Kashmir now.  This was a reflection of the Generals own person set of morals and values, his irrefutable belief in who he was, and that my friend, is easy to forget in todays world.  Indeed a brave man

But then I find ideals in the most simplest of thing, remember Brownie; remember my Garden of fruits, and in it, lies another variety the gem of gem and that is the "Kiwi Sharma" fruit.  Strong, silent and a believer of faith 'read God.. oops Goddess.  Now nobody prefers to be an atheist nowadays, its just not their style, an attitude nowadays demands that you have a heavenly body on your CV, and so even fruits have their gods, for example, the "Kiwi Sharma" looks up to the "Madagascar Mathur" as the Goddess to worship.  Why goddess then, why not a God ? Do heavenly creatures have their sex marked out too ?  Well probably, because, the only one that Kiwi can hear advice from is a woman and so strong is his preferences that he will talk only to a woman, even if that means being godless if there were no sex in Gods.  If he met the male equivalent of the same goddess, say Mango Singh,  he would try and kill Mango, even if it meant being clubbed with Satan. 

So why do men like talking to only women, is it because they are less dominating or because men have only sex on their mind.  Every opportunity to talk is an opportunity to slip one in and try and score.  The minds of most pious of saints have been known to be corrupted with improprietary of a Menaka.  Do you realise how wrong are the vedic  implications of the statement "improprietary of Maneka", and this, if lost to anyone I will reinforce.  It falsely depicts that Maneka was the sinner, however she was only doing her job.  All men are the same my friend, they will try and slip one in when you least expect it and blame it all on you.  Ponder over what I say my friend while I quietly slip into the bar and sip my Admiral Perry.
Truly the "pear"less Aurora.

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